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The Weight of Loss: I’ve Been Eating Through My Grief

At the beginning of June I was six pounds away from my Summer 2014 goal. In the middle of June one of my Aunts passed away unexpectedly and needless to say, those six pounds were the last thing on my mind.

I spent the first few days grieving alone. I live in New York City and the majority of my family is in California, so all I wanted to do was fly home and be with people who understood our loss. There were people I needed to embrace, there were people I needed to embrace me. As I waited for arrangements and booked flights I felt like I was under water, swimming through the sudden void we had in our family.

There are people who write about grief and loss much better than I can. My girl Ty wrote a blog post one year after her mother died here. #PSPfit Cheer Squad member, Brianne shared a beautiful letter from her Dad after he passed away here.

The Weight of Loss I've Been Eating Through My Grief

What I thought we could talk about today is how loss, grief and bereavement can affect our journey towards healthy living. For me emotional health is as much a part of my #PSPfit lifestyle as my eating or hitting the gym. If I sprained my ankle and couldn’t work out, I’d look at ways to stay on track in spite of my injury. So what should we do when our emotions are injured?

Unexpected loss could happen at any time. We could lose a job, a relationship or a loved one at the drop of a hat. As an emotional eater, my tendencies to want to fill voids with food can show up at times like this and its a slippery slope before I’m eating unsupportive foods I haven’t touched in years in an effort to find comfort.

When I was in California, we had an abundance of foods that would “keep” around my Grandmothers house. Trays of baked goods, macaroni and cheese, enchiladas, tamales were constantly dropped off from family friends and neighbors.

Bringing food to families that are grieving is something we all do. Food is brings us together, food makes us feel comfort and logistically, we want to make sure anyone who is in the midst of funeral arrangements doesn’t have to come home and worry about cooking.

In talking with our #PSPfit nutrition coach, Abra, I came to an understanding that finding comfort in family, friends and food during a time of grief isn’t anything to be ashamed of. The hard part for me was navigating the transition between grief eating and my healthy curves lifestyle. In theory, the minute I flew back to NYC after the funeral, I should have left the baked good, mac and cheese, etc. in California but that didn’t happen.

I’ve fallen off the wagon before and managed to undo months of hard work in a matter of weeks. The difference this time was that even though my emotional eating was in full effect and I was binging on foods that were unsupportive, my healthy choices never went away. When I felt sad said yes to foods I had no business eating… but I also said yes to my whole grains, leafy greens and workouts.

So, now I’m 15 pounds away from my summer 2014 goal instead of six. Not great, but trust me it could have been worse. For me this weight gain has brought back some things like my eczema flare ups and some PCOS symptoms that had gone away are back. I’m finally getting to a place emotionally where I can think about, care about and do something about the impact of these 15 pounds on my body.

I’ve mapped out a plan to finish 2014 strong when it comes to my health and if you’re interested in staying/getting back on track, I’d love for you to join me so we can keep each other accountable. On Wednesdays blog post, I’ll post the full details on a little #PSPfit Pre-game challenge I’m cooking up.

That’s it. My emotions and my eating are intertwined, but I know I have it in me to make these commitments to myself and get my life together a bit more before the end of the year.

How have you girls been doing on your healthy curves journeys? Any set backs? Big wins?

Dear CeCe: Should I Lose Weight for my Boyfriend? #CurvyConvo

Today’s Curvy Conversation comes from Twitter:

Hi CeCe!

I met amazing guy last night who told me I was equally amazing, but would love for me to lose weight while we get together. 

He said it so sweetly, as in “please don’t think you are not beautiful and I do want to be with you just lose a little weight…” part of me was a little sad, but a part of me wanted a reason to get back to the gym because I wasn’t getting ANY love from ANYONE.

He wants to be with me, but wants me to lose weight…I know I shouldn’t care what he thinks, but I kind of do. I kind of feel bad that a guy is the reason I want to get back to the gym, but he is so damn fine Im going HAM on that treadmill! 

I need your advice, should I care that he wants me to lose weight (“not too much I like your curves”) in order to stay w/me?

Hi there,

Thanks for tweeting/writing me 🙂 I’d like to address your question in a special way this week, if you don’t mind.

First, I’m going to give you a few questions to think about, below.

Second, hopefully some of our fellow Plus Size Princesses will chime in and offer your their advice, in the comments section because we all have different experiences when it comes to dating and weight loss. I think different points of view may be helpful here.

Thirdly, I’m going to dive into your question with some of my favorite plus size bloggers during my first #CurvyConvo Live Twitter chat/Video Stream on Sunday August 10th

In the meantime, here are some things for you to consider:

1.) You said you met him last night. Do you think its appropriate for a man you’ve known less than 24 hours to ask you to lose weight?

2.) Do you think motivation to live a healthy/fit life should come from others? or some from within ourselves?

3.) How would you feel if you gained the weight back and he had an issue with it?

4.) How do you feel about the “not too much” comment?

5.) If someone you’ve known for years asked you to lose weight for them– what would you tell them?

Ladies, if you’re reading this and have thoughts/advice for our girl– please help us out in the comments section.

Also, join us as we dive deeper into weight, dating, fashion and more during my #CurvyConvo: Live session.

August 10th

6:00-7:00pm EDT Twitter Chat (use #CurvyConvo, to join)

7:00-7:30pm Live Video Chat (RSVP here)

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My Favorite Places to Swim Laps in New York City + Plus Size Bathing Suits | Fitness

Hi CeCe,

I noticed that you’ve done a few posts here and pics on instagram with you swimming. Would you be interested in writing about pools in NYC?


Hey Brandi,

Sure! I love swimming and I highly recommend it as a form of exercise for Plus Size Princesses because its an intense workout that is low impact. Meaning, you’ll burn a lot of calories without pounding your knees and other joints.

Here are my favorite places to swim laps in NYC, there’s something for every budget, from Free to Fancy! (Prices are based on what I paid, call for current rates).

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The NYC pools have designated lap swims in the summer at their pools. There are NYC public pools in every neighborhood, so you don’t have to travel far. The lap swim program begins July 7 – August 29, Monday through Friday

Early Bird – 7:00 a.m. – 8:30 a.m. (July and August)
Night Owl – 7:00 p.m. – 8:30 p.m. (July) and 8:15 p.m. (August)

Things I love: When I lived in Harlem, my favorite pool was in Marcus Garvey park. It was nice to swim outdoors and in a long pool so I could work on my endurance.

Things I hate: The public pools are open during the day to (mostly) kids who are out of school and trying to cool off. So, jumping into a pool that’s been full of kids all day wasn’t my favorite. There were lost braids in the pool, candy wrappers and the water wasn’t as clear as I’d prefer– but its free, so… *shrugs*



Bally Sports Club

Not to be confused with Bally Total Fitness, in NYC on 32nd and 50th street, there are upgraded Bally’s. These locations have pools. If you join a Bally Sports club you can go to a total fitness, but it doesn’t work the other way around, so be mindful of where you join.

The pools aren’t lap pools by any means, but they get the job done and there’s a jacuzzi, sauna and steam room (all co-ed).

Things I love: The location was easy for me when I worked in midtown and the water was clearer than the free pools

Things I hate: The pool is next to a big window where people can watch from the gym floor. I don’t like people seeing me half naked when they’re fully clothed on a treadmill, that’s just not fair… *shrugs*


New York Sports Club

The NYSC on 91/3rd and 49/Broadway both have pools. The pools are on the short side, but they’re clean, well managed and there isn’t too much of a wait. The 49th and Bway location has a skylight which gives an outdoor feel and they take reservations.

Things I love: The steam room is located in the locker room, so its women only.

Things I hate: The pool on 49th is shared with a hotel, so sometimes tourists will watch you swim laps… awk.



Let me start by saying the YMCA’s in NYC are more fancy than what I remember from my California childhood. These gyms are NICE! They have indoor lap pools, steam rooms, sauna’s as well as other gym classes. During the summer you can get a full summer membership to any YMCA for $200 flat and its a great way to try out if you like the facilities or not.

Things I love: They have a “calm waters” schedule that tells you when the most lanes will be open.

Things I hate: The shower heads are really harsh– it’s the one thing that does remind me of my childhood YMCA camp summers. Also, I saw a woman with her shower curtain open, shaving her bikini area while holding a conversation with another woman across the locker room, I thought that was kinda much, but… *shrugs*


Healthy Comfort Food? | Plus Size Fitness | Weight Loss

As an emotional eater, sometimes I can fool myself into thinking that the best thing to do after a hard day is indulge in my favorite foods. For me, the most awesome comfort foods in the world are:

Fresh Baked Chocolate Chip Cookies (with a cold glass of almond milk)

Mac and Cheese (Truffle Mac and Cheese is a new favorite)

Quesadillas (melted cheese inside of a tortilla, extra points if there’s guacamole involved)

Homemade Chocolate Cake (you know when you place a scoop of ice cream on top and it starts to melt right in… *deep sigh*)

Some of my comfort foods are sweet, some are savory but the one thing they have in common?

They’re all WARM!

During #PSPfit Cycle 3, Abra brought up a good point on our weekly call when the girls were talking about comfort foods. She asked us if perhaps we’re finding comfort in the warmth of our food instead of the indulgent dishes we deem comforting.

A light bulb went off in my head. As an unmarried girl who lives alone, how often do I have a hot meal?

So, for the past few weeks I’ve been working hard to incorporate warm dishes into my meals. I add soup to my lunches at work (my office is freezing in the summer, so it feels good).

At home I’ve been making warm salads. Sometimes I sautee the ingredients fresh and create a warm salad and sometimes I make a salad cold and then put it in the oven until its warm. Warm Kale salads with salmon are my favorite!

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As part of my private Nutrition Coachings with Abra, she sent me this quote from Genene Roth who wrote an amazing book called Women, Food and God.

Hot meals are real food. Hot meals nourish you. A Snickers bar tastes good, but after you’ve finished it, you don’t feel as if you’ve eaten. So you scrounge around for more and soon you find yourself standing in your kitchen eating cold pizza from three days ago.

If your life is arranged so that you don’t have time to eat a hot meal everyday–even if it’s soup or scrambled eggs, even if it’s vegetable pot pie heated in the microwave–it’s time to question your priorities.

Eating one hot meal a day is a way of saying that you want the real thing: a life of main courses. It is a way to begin giving yourself the real thing.

My issues with food are never going do go away, but I can begin to own them. Instead of being dragged down by comfort food that doesn’t support my health, I can redefine what is comforting to me so that I get what I need from food emotionally and physically.

The next time you’re craving an unsupportive comfort food, see if you can do a “hot remix” of a healthy option… it might make you feel better from the inside out. Just a thought!

Our next online fitness/nutrition bootcamp will be the 30 days before Thanksgiving. Join us from any city by pre registering at www.PSPfit.com

We Love You Taylor Townsend | Plus Size Fitness

Growing up, dance was my sport. Tap and Jazz were my favorite things in the world!

As a kid, I can remember having one of my first major dance troupe auditions. I was young enough that I hadn’t yet learned what self doubt felt like, so I walked into the room, learned the choreography and nailed it. They gave optional more advanced moves/turns and I did them when other girls played it save with the more beginner moves.

I was devastated when I didn’t get accepted.

A few weeks later, one of the judges from the audition ran into my family at a restaurant. She pulled my Mom to the side with sorrowful eyes and said:

“I just want you to know that there was a huge argument over whether CeCe should be accepted into the dance troupe. She auditioned flawlessly and I wanted her in, but… unfortunately some of the judges felt that she didn’t have the body of a dancer, so her ability didn’t matter. I just don’t want CeCe to think she’s not talented, because she is. I’m sorry.”

Last week I read about Taylor Townsend, the youngest U.S. woman to advance to the third round at the French Open since 2003. You can imagine my delight when I saw that she was a curvy girl! You can also imagine my surprise when I read a HuffPo article saying “just two years ago, the U.S. Tennis Association attempted to keep her out of competition at the U.S. Open. It was suggested they would not restore their support until the teen, then the top-ranked junior player in the world, lost weight.”

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Patrick McEnroe, general manager of the USTA’s player development program said he was just looking out for her health.

Even though I love dancing, taking fitness classes and playing sports I still struggle to identify as “athletic” because of my size, so thank you Tara, for dominating at any size and inspiring girls of all sizes to be fierce competitors.

Also, kudos to Tara’s mom who payed out of pocket for her to compete when the USTA refused to support her child (They’ve has since reimbursed Townsend’s mother for their travel costs to the 2012 U.S. Open) that was a huge sacrifice, I’m sure.

Kudos to my parents who kept me in dance/music/theater classes and supported my talents even when others couldn’t see past my size.

If you’re plus size or have a plus size kid who excels in something that is supposed to be just for skinny folks… don’t give up, don’t let your kid give up. As we redefine what health looks like I truly hope that diverse body types will be allowed to move and play to the best of their ability without shame.

Did any of you play sports growing up?

Shhh! You’re Interrupting my Body Confidence Party…

Have you ever been at a party where everyone was in the zone, dancing the night away and then a neighbor knocks on the door with a noise complaint and kills the whole vibe?

Sharing the intimate details of how I’m learning to love myself at any size isn’t an easy thing to do. But when your comments roll in and I realize I’m not alone, the body confidence party begins! Of course, on each post there’s always one vibe killing comment that goes something like this:

“Great piece. But being overweight is really unhealthy…”

The comment is usually followed by a cautionary list of ailments that I will get if I don’t start taking care of myself (diabetes, heart disease, etc.).

*record screeches to a halt*

Its as if people think I don’t know the health stats they’re quoting. Or as if they don’t care that I’m on a healthy curves journey. I feel like they’re saying I’m not skinny right now, then I have no business writing anything positive about my body or how I look.

This is the Plus Size Princess struggle.

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How do I love myself, value myself, care for myself at any size and keep the Body Confidence Party going, when there are people jumping at the chance to remind me that none of this matters if I’m still fat?

Mental health is a major part of plus size fitness, for me. I choose not to respond to negative comments, but I do want to mention it here with you girls because I know we’re all trying to figure this out together.

Finding ways to feel good about myself no matter what the scale says is the thing that makes me want to do better by my body; eat well, work out, pray/meditate. I’m running my own race and for me, I’ve got to tackle this #PSPfit healthy living thing mind, body and spirit.

There will always be people who can’t fathom that a person at our size (whatever that may be) feels good about herself. Those people seem to feel that they have a responsibility to interrupt our body confidence party with a PSA on how being fat is awful and unhealthy.

But hating yourself is awful and unhealthy too… so please stop killing my vibe!

What’s Easier for you: Food or Fitness?

When it comes to food, I’ve got issues. I’ve been running from the image of a fat girl shoveling food into her mouth since I was eight. I never wanted to be seen eating too much food.

This meant as a teen I ordered fries and a milk shake because it was visually less food than a burger/fries. Though I know now that I’d be better off with the burger than the sugary milkshake.

I’m not in high school anymore, but old habits are hard to break.

When I first started working with my nutrition coach, she had me eating so much food and I was terrified. It was so hard for me to accept that it was better for me to eat large quantities of clean/unprocesed foods than to eat tiny portions of lean cuisine… then I lost 10 pounds in two weeks and I was like, oh… okay!

I’ve spent my entire life hearing that eating is what’s making me fat, which makes it almost impossible to imagine that food is what I need to get my weight and/or health under control, even though I see it happening. Truth be told, I can workout for 7 straight days and lose 2-3 pounds… or I can eat clean for 7 straight days and lose 4-6 pounds.

Fitness is always the easier choice for me, but getting my food under control is always the right choice.

What’s easier for you? Food or Fitness?

Here’s a nutrition lesson + recipe from the #PSPfit Nutrition coach, Abra (Recipe Below).

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1 can organic black beans, well rinsed

1 small bell pepper, chopped
1/4 jalapeno, chopped
1/4 red onion, chopped
handful of chopped parsley
1/2 avocado, diced
olive oil, lime juice, salt and pepper

Another version of the recipe can be found here 

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Plus Size Fitness: Squats with Bad Knees? Let’s Do it!

When I went home for Christmas in December, I was walking a few paces ahead of my sisters.

“Ummmm where did THAT come from?” I heard, one of them say. I turned around and saw both of them staring at my bum.

Both of my sisters have great backsides, while I hold it down in the boobs department.

I know I’ll never catch up to them but I’ve been doing the best with what I have and apparently its working and I’m a little less Sponge Bob Square @$$ than I was before!

A big part of toning up my derrière has come with learning that I can do squats without trashing my knees. So, I asked my trainer/friend Robbie to help me make a tutorial on how to do squats with bad knees.

Check it out below and if you’d like us to shoot any other plus size fitness tutorials, let me know what you need help with in the comments below!

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Does Our Weight Affect Our Friendships? | Being Mary Jane Big Girl Recap

I couldn’t give Being Mary Jane two hours of my time yesterday, so I just finished watching the second half of the finale tonight. If you don’t watch the show, I’ll give you a quick recap.

Wait– are you judging me for watching it? *blush*

All you need to know is that Mary Jane’s ex boyfriend found out that she stole his semen and froze it in the hopes of getting pregnant via turkey baster. (omg, you really are judging me for watching this show, aren’t you?)

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Anyway, Mary Jane accuses her plus size friend, Nichelle (played by Brely Evans) of being the one who told him. As they argue back and forth, Nichelle says something interesting

“What I am to you is a non-threatening, big jolly girl you call when you want to have a good time and make you feel better about yourself!”

We focus so much about how being a Plus Size Princess affects our dating relationships, but what about our platonic female friendships? I’ve written this post about friends who gave me backwards compliments. I’ve written this post about my friends letting their boyfriends sleep at my house alone (cause who would cheat with a big girl??)

During #PSPfit bootcamp we talk about what its like to lose weight and how some skinny friends aren’t as eager to go out with you when you’re not the big girl anymore.

All of these things are easy to discuss after the fact, I think about some girls I was cool with in college; they would come to my dorm with boyfriend problems, call me to see if I wanted to do a late night ice-cream run, but on a Friday night when it was time to turn up at the club and meet guys, I was rarely invited. For those people I was always the maternal figure, the good listening ear… the one they called when they wanted to talk through problems, but not the one they called for a fun girls night out.

Do some people keep us around to make themselves feel better?

When I left college, I still had relationships where I wondered if I wasn’t fully embraced as a friend because of my weight. Those girls were the ones who carefully explained that Robert probably wasn’t attracted to me when I was in the grey area with him.

The good thing is, just like a character on a show can be recast, we can recast the friends in our lives who aren’t good for us. Friendships are so much more nuanced than romantic relationships, but they can be just as frustrating and painful. I think its important for us to talk about how plus size women can demand the best in any relationship we have.


Plus Size Fitness: PCOS, Goddess Dressing, Body Weight Workouts (Video)

I woke up on January 1st feeling really gross. My scalp was flaky and itchy due to an eczema flare up. My face was broken out, my period had been two days late (not a good sign for PCOS) and I had crazy swelling in my ankles.

When I decided to take December off from my plus size fitness life, I assumed I’d gain weight but I didn’t anticipate the other ways I’d fall apart. I’m starting to realize that what I eat affects more than just my weight.

After starting the January Jump Start with the #PSPfit girls, if I wasn’t 100% sure that clean eating is the best option for me, I am now. One week of clean eating and my ankles are no longer cankles, face is clear, aunt flow should be back to her regularly scheduled visits and my eczema flare up has subsided.

So, I guess that means no more month long “breaks”, huh? *looks away*

If you want to know what it looks like to do #PSPfit, I’ve made a little vlog about what I did to lose 6.9 pounds in the first week. I’ve got food ideas, planning tips and my gym sessions below!

To join the spring bootcamp send me your email here: www.PSPfit.com

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