I know my confidence is growing when this happens:
Warm weather comes… and I put away my sweaters.
For many years, I wore hoodies and sweaters all year round in an effort to hide my body. If you happened to see a girl walking around in the blazing heat on the 4th of July, wearing a maxi dress and a long sleeve cardigan… that was me. My bad.
But each summer, the more my self confidence grew, the easier it became to get dressed. I learned to show my arms, my legs and eventually wear a bikini at the beach!
After my health scare and weight loss, I’m still fat (fine with me!) but I’m the smallest I’ve ever been as an adult (I have mixed feelings on this). I’m surprised (and annoyed) to find out that body insecurity can show up for me at any size.
As I’ve mentioned in previous posts, the changes in my body have pros and cons. I’m not asking anyone to feel sorry for me, but I do want you to know that losing weight did not make all of my problems go away.
I thought I had “done the work” all the way… but maybe not.
This summer is bringing back some of my old anxieties around showing my body in the summer months.
I figured it out because I’ve been wearing a lot of turtlenecks this winter and as the weather is warming up here in New York City, I’m finding myself wanting to continue wearing them. I realized I’ve been finding comfort in the layers and long sleeves that winter requires.
So, what’s a girl to do?
I remember how oppressive it felt to cover my body in unnecessary layers each summer and I didn’t want to feel that way again.
Well lucky for me, I was able to read this article on how to find the confidence to show my arms.
So, I decided that I’ve come too far on my confidence journey to turn back. I folded up my turtlenecks, put them away for the season and then I put on this cute plus size white skirt, a tee shirt and forced myself out of the house.
This outfit is from this adorable EV1 collection from Ellen Degeneres at Walmart!
I got the skirt in a size 18 and I wore it high on my waist for the “mini skirt” feel (I was going ALL the way in). If you want to skirt to be knee length, I would suggest sizing up so that it lays well in the front and sits nicely on the wider part of your waist/hips.
I wanted this plus size camo tee to fit like a baby doll shirt, so I sized down on this and got an XL. Walking around NYC is no joke, so I through on a comfy pair of sneakers.
Instead of picking my body apart, I focused on how I loved feeling the warm sun on my skin, I loved feeling light and free without layers and I am thankful for the person who invented anti chafing balm!
It was a great day that got me out of my own head and boosted my confidence.
My confidence journey isn’t perfect, but I’m grateful that it continues to move forward and evolve.
Do you have to work harder for confidence in the summer?